// little boxes on a hilltop….//

my mind is tired of invisible rules forming invisible boarders making invisible sense of my decisions.  i’ve been here too long to believe in destiny.. but still too young to believe in anything else…so i rest desensitized..not knowing how to empathize with the meaning of a smile.  there is no rational…only vision with peripheral. a whole world unseen is left behind.  how can i choose?  how can i stand for something? 

in a youtube existence where potential energy is raised to infinity…kinetic is running from me…and it feels like shit.  arguments with myself produces an inflated ego that can’t lose…and it feels like a hit.. higher than i’ve ever been… soaring…soaring………falling…falling…til’ gravity meets concrete and i am left alone.. staring in the mirror of my slanted soul…crying for purpose that doesn’t feel wrong.  

i am scared.  stricken by a handicap caused by implications… tired of bipolar emotions……..and ready to give a fuck.